My Journal: August 24th 2015
Blame
Things always happen for a reason and most of the time we don’t know what that reason is. Sometimes, we do know the cause but we refuse to admit the truth. Blame is easy when the compass needle is pointing away from you. But what happens when the fault lies squarely on you and you are the foundation of the problem? Simple. Stand up, take responsibility and start looking for solutions.
Solving the blame issue is often a complex and difficult process. In most cases, blame is paired with guilt, sadness and sometimes denial. People feel guilt for circumstances outside their control and that leads to depression, feelings of worthlessness and in extreme instances–suicide. Placing blame on yourself for something you have no control over can only make the situation worse.
Accepting blame for something you caused or you believe is your doing is a step towards reconciliation within yourself. You may not be able to bridge the problem with others, but at least you can come to terms with yourself and start the healing process. Taking responsibility is crucial in moving forward towards new and amazing things.
I blame myself for my failure as a husband and the damage I caused in my nearly twenty years of marriage. I blame myself for the eventual divorce and bitterness that is associated with separation. I blame myself and take full responsibility for my actions and the subterfuge that came from my actions or inactions. It’s my fault and I’m trying to learn to be okay with that.
I read quite a bit and always find comfort in the passages of certain authors. I’ve been reading Kahlil Gibran for years and his words always calm my fears and push me towards a better day. This week I read this and it comforted me:
“That deed which in our guilt we today call weakness, will appear tomorrow as an essential link in the compete chain of Man.”
~Kahlil Gibran
The key to healing is forgiveness and the first person you should forgive is yourself.